“Learning how to walk in heels is not impossible – it just takes patience perseverance, persistence and prayer!”
I thought this analogy, complemented my situation the best! Let me explain!
In my previous post , I wrote about resigning from my job to stay home with my little one full time. However, despite separating myself from my former job place and beloved job position, I still have a desire to be a financial provider for my family.
After 18+ years of being in the workforce, and earned 3 professional college degrees, it is really hard to break away from the “traditional worker 8 to 5, 40 hours-a-week frame of mind” that I am so accustomed to. It is something I can not just “shut-off” in my brain, neither can I Shake it off.
I love love being a full-time stay at home mommy, and absolutely will not trade this grateful 😊 opportunity for anything!!!! But I have “work” on the brain, and lots of creative ideas to shape, bead, mold, fold, sew, crochet, and build! I want to be with my baby full time and work from home!
How can I go about this?
Is this possible?
After taking an analytical approach about the potential of creating work for myself while at home, I accounted for specific variables such as daily routines, baby sleeping patterns, doctor appointments, current finances, on-hand resources and tools, various skills, and knowledge, previous work experience; in conjunction with mounds of note taking and number crunching, working for myself at home is all very viable. I spent sometime piecing together a simple business plan. It was very exciting to do this out loud with fresh brewed coffee and a white board!
Fate-Maker, Future-Holder and Book-keeper!
Rather than working for a company to rely on for a stable paycheck, I will be my own company and be my own boss-lady business owner, chief executive officer, chief financial officer, operations manager, worker-bee, executive assistant and delivery person…. essentially I will be my own fate-maker, future-holder and bookkeeper!
As insanely scary this personal venture is, I am just gonna do it!! How? I am not sure, despite having a simple business plan – I don’t have all the answers to everything as this is something I have never done before. Thankfully, I have Google for speedy search results to virtually any question I can possibly come up with and Barnes and Normal (Nobles) having a vast reference book collection – “How to books for Dummies”
I shall wear my confidence like the comfy Hanes T-shirt
Everyday, regardless of where I am on the rehter scale of scarred and afraid, I shall wear my confidence like the comfy Hanes T-shirt I stole from my husband that I don’t plan on returning, and rock it out! My expectations are positive for the future, but realistically, I know I will more than likely ungracefully fall on my bum many times over or trample… stumble… as I did when I first learned how to walk in heels…in high school…which was neither angelic or poised, and sooo far from elegant! It was more like, “Make way…Isla is coming! AAAggghhhh!!”
Despite that I was clumsy and a walking hip replacement waiting to happen – I was patient. I persevered thru the pain, and persisted by not quitting, despite being the opposite of graceful!
I did a lot of thinking, and running different play book scenarios in my head but I am going to wear my best stilettos, move forward, and plug-in my smarts, and channel a can-do attitude, and creativity. It does help that I have a mad computer genius with C++/powershell/java/python/ruby and rails coding super powers!
With this personal venture, I acknowledge that I will not see a quick return in my investment, however with patience perseverance, persistence and prayer I am positive that I will! Right now, all I have is an idea, a plan of action, aspirations, a lot of notes, pens, a case of liquid white -out pen remover, staples, a new paper-weight and an overflowing book of ideas.
So whether it is teaching or learning how to walk in heels, or starting a personal work at home business – it really comes down to this – patience, perseverance, persistence and prayer!